Author: Maria Yang, MD

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Homelessness Reading

Down and Out, On the Road.

It took me a couple of months, but I finally got through Down and Out, On the Road: The Homeless in American History (first mentioned in this post). Here are the main points I took from the book:

“Down and Out” refers to people who live in impoverished urban areas. More specifically, people who live on “skid row” are “down and out”. (The term “skid row” likely originated in Seattle. As noted in both the Underground Tour and Beneath the Streets Tour in the Pioneer Square neighborhood, tree logs cut from the hills were pushed down Yesler Way towards the waterfront. Logs skidding down Yesler Way led to the name “skid row”.) These days, “skid row” typically refers to centers of poverty in cities where homeless people often reside. This is paired with…

“On the Road” refers to people who were homeless and, in trying to search for work, rode the trains. They often did not ride in the train, but rather on or under the train. These same individuals might reside in “down and out” areas upon arriving in a city. During the 1800s, people who were homeless were often associated with riding the rails than living in skid rows.

The term “the jungle” has been used to describe homeless encampments for nearly 200 years. In recent years here in Seattle, “the jungle” has referred specifically to a large encampment tucked under many trees in an undeveloped area near Interstate 5. This “jungle” was also notorious in the local press for violence (and was subsequently razed, though it seems that there are evergreen efforts to revive it). Over the past 200 years, people who had no place to live set up camp in forested areas (“jungles”) outside of urban centers, which developed into communities.

Cycles of romanticizing and vilifying homeless people are not new. People with no place to live are poor. Because the working class recognized how similar their struggles were with people who were homeless, they were (and continue to be) consistently more sympathetic, empathetic, and generous to them. Other classes, though, have swung between perceptions that people who are homeless are harmless—perhaps even charming (see Norman Rockwell) to lazy, deviant, and dangerous. (Other indicators include The Way It Is and Mr. Wendal, both excellent songs.)

Homelessness is a consequence of poverty. When I first received the book, I confess that I was dismayed to see in the index that “mental illness” is mentioned on only four pages of this ~250 page text. Kusmer, the author, provides a compelling historical account that various systems, including government policy (or lack thereof), economic forces, and cultural values are the chief drivers that lead to people becoming poor. Poverty is a major risk factor for homelessness. (I know this from my own anecdotal experience: Most people who are homeless do not have a severe psychiatric illness like schizophrenia. People often develop psychiatric symptoms because of homelessness. Even if every single psychiatrist in the nation worked with people who are homeless, homelessness would persist: There are plenty of people who are unhoused who do not need psychiatric treatment. They need a place to live and ways to have money to pay for living expenses.)

There was a federal program to address homelessness! Homelessness has been and continues to be a nationwide problem (regardless of the size of the US throughout time) that requires a federal response. The Federal Transient Service (FTS) was the first (and only?) federal agency in US history whose goal was to aid people who were homeless and unemployed. It started in 1933 and only lasted two years, in part because it seemed “successful”: The number of homeless people dropped, so everyone thought the problem of homelessness was solved. FTS funds were swept to support public works and Social Security. (In theory, public works and Social Security seemed like better investments to prevent homelessness.)

The disproportionate number of homeless people who are Black is not new. This is another legacy of slavery. A number of minority populations (e.g., Native Americans, Mexicans, women) suffer from homelessness because of policies and practices related to economic and class exclusion.

Down and Out, On the Road: The Homeless in American History was published in 2002. My sense is that the author, when viewing the current state of homelessness in the US, would continue to argue that the forces that contribute to poverty remain the primary driver of homelessness. I think he would continue to view mental illness and substance use as distractions and not significant causes of homelessness. (To be clear, I don’t think he’s discounting psychiatric conditions as contributors to homelessness for specific individuals, particularly since psychiatric conditions, both directly and indirectly, can pull people into poverty.) I appreciate how he ends the text:

The compulsion to stereotype the homeless as dependent and deviant turns the poorest Americans into an abstract “other,” separate and inferior from everyone else. Although their problems are more severe, however, destitute people living on the streets and in homeless shelters are not so different from the rest of us. They never have been. Any genuine effort to end homelessness must begin with a recognition of that essential truth.

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Blogosphere Medicine Systems

Brain Snacks.

It’s a short post this week, though the links will take you to nutritious brain snacks (or hors d’oeuvres, if you identify as classy):

24 Hours in an Invisible Pandemic. This is an excellent example of data visualization about the experience of loneliness in the US.

26.2 to Life. This documentary is about the San Quentin Marathon. The athletes are inmates at the San Quentin prison. The course is 105 laps around the prison yard. (The virtual premiere is this weekend.)

30 Days of Healthcare. Dr. Glaucomflecken’s series of short videos about the US health care system is accurate, devastating, and, when it can be, amusing.

We Are Not Just Polarized. We Are Traumatized. This long essay is provocative, thoughtful, and worth the time to read. (Side commentary: The term “trauma response” is a relatively new phrase and, as far as I know, isn’t rooted in robust psychological or biological principles. I worry that the usage of “trauma response” may also dilute the experiences of people who meet formal criteria for the diagnosis of PTSD.)

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Nonfiction

A Guessing Game.

To keep the watermelon from rolling off the platform, I placed the bag holding it between my ankles. My fingers tapped words of grief into my phone while I waited at the International District/Chinatown light rail station. Around ten of us were waiting for the next train.

“Ni hao?” A male voice was asking me this tentative question. My head tilted up; who was talking to me? He waved at me, a smile on his lips.

“Ni hao?” he asked again, taking a few steps towards me. Without waiting a beat, he continued, “Are you Chinese? Am I right? Wait, let me guess: Filipino.”

Reader, my mind was worn and my body was weary. How should I have responded?

I look East Asian because, yes, I am Chinese American. That is something I cannot and do not wish to change.

I didn’t want to talk with him or anyone else. My heart was heavy with sadness.

He was also talking at me. Did he actually want to have a conversation? or simply the satisfaction of winning a guessing game?

My eyes remain fixed on his while I did the calculations. If I answer this stranger’s question, he will probably continue to talk. If I respond with snark, he might get mad. (That he wasn’t giving me the space to speak warned me that he might be impulsive. If he genuinely wanted to know my ethnicity, he could have asked me directly. In English.) Either way, we’d both be contributing to an interaction, something I didn’t want.

So, I said nothing, tilted my head back down at my phone, and resumed my text conversation with myself.

Reader, what do you think his reaction was?

“No, no,” he said, coming closer to me. “You’re wearing yellow sneakers and I’m yellow, too, I’m Filipino.”

I kept my eyes fixed on my phone and continued creating words, letter by letter.

“Oh, come on,” he whined, still approaching. “Don’t withhold from me!”

I started a new paragraph on my phone: a guy on the platform just started talking to me, greeted me with a “ni hao”

“You’re a BITCH!” he shouted. My peripheral vision spied that he was standing to my right, less than an arm’s length away.

Reader, what should I have done?

There were other people on the platform. A petite woman, who also appeared East Asian, was standing about six feet away from me to my left. She kept her eyes on her phone. There was also a handful of people on the opposite platform.

Pigeons fluttered between the rafters. Tiny feathers floated down onto the track.

don’t look up

he could hit you he’s close

don’t move

stay

“Fuck you,” he snarled.

Then, he started walking away. A few steps in he turned back and screamed, “FAGGOT!” He sauntered down the platform.

The only visible movement from my body was in my fingers: explained that it was the yellow I was wearing and he was yellow, too. When I continued to ignore him, he started calling me names

When the train arrived, I looked up. I got into a traincar and leaned against the opposite doors. He got into the same traincar and sat down about ten feet from me.

When the train started moving, he made small talk with people wearing jerseys for the visiting baseball team. He greeted them in English. They talked about the visiting team’s city. He told them to have a good time.

Was that really the same person?

I got off the train. He exited the train, too.

After waiting for him to board the escalator, I remained far behind him and watched him leave the station. Unsure of what to do next, I again chose stillness: I loitered in the station for over five minutes before I fell into the shadows directly behind a group of people around my age.

He had disappeared into the city crowds.

Part of the reason why I ask my colleagues, regardless of credential, to call me “Maria” instead “Dr. Yang” is because of events like this. Outside of the work setting my status automatically regresses towards the mean. People like this shouting man reveal just how low some think my status should be.

Like elsewhere in the country, events continue to occur in Seattle that show how much contempt some people have for Asians. The esteemed Wing Luke Museum was recently vandalized. The man who smashed multiple windows with a sledgehammer offered this explanation for his actions: “The Chinese are responsible for all this, they’ve ruined my life. … That’s why I came to Chinatown.” I don’t know who this person is, though descriptions of his speech suggest that he may have psychiatric symptoms. That offers no consolation. (I don’t think the use of racial slurs in of itself reflects mental illness.)

This isn’t the first time that someone has given me unwanted attention because of my ethnicity. (Presumably this was more about my gender, though this event nicely illustrates intersectionality). It won’t be the last time, either.

I don’t think of myself as a victim. What has changed, though, is that I walk through the world with greater vigilance. When I initially took up running, I did so to improve my aerobic fitness. These days, I want to maintain the ability to run a 5K so I can run away for self-preservation.

I think it is mostly luck that the shouting man did not strike me. Had he hit me, I would have been injured. I don’t feel great about my decision that day to remain rooted and still while ignoring him. However, I also believe that any other choice I could have made to limit our interaction would have had a similar result.

I don’t owe anyone my attention, just as no one owes me theirs.

But, such is the creeping toxicity of racism: You don’t actually know when you should be worried, so you always worry.

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Lessons Nonfiction

Thanks, Speedy Old Man.

When I lived in New York, my then boyfriend and I ran races with the New York Road Runners. Boyfriend was a much faster runner than me, but, given the literal thousands of other runners in each race, there were always people faster than him… including an elderly man.

One of the people who consistently finished ahead of Boyfriend was a man who was 30 years older than him! We’ll call this person Speedy Old Man. Sometimes Boyfriend was quick enough to finish seconds behind Speedy (Old Man), so we eventually learned what he looked like. (To be fair, this wasn’t hard: The wrinkles in Speedy’s skin and his thinning white hair exposed his geriatric status.) Speedy became both a target and an inspiration: Could Boyfriend outrun Speedy this time? (No.) Or next time? (No.)

We automatically started checking Speedy’s race times after looking up our own. Speedy ran a lot of races! He was nearly always the fastest person in his age group! (Can you believe that he had competitors???) What a marvel: Speedy was prolific, persistent, and a paragon of successful aging.

In addition to leaving us in the dust, he left us feeling inspired.

Boyfriend became Husband, and then we moved out of New York. Despite living on opposite coasts, we still thought of Speedy whenever the New York City Marathon made the news or when the YouTube algorithm introduced us to elderly athletes.

We recently watched elite international runners race the rainy New York City 5th Avenue Mile. (The winner of the men’s race finished the mile in less than 3 minutes and 48 seconds!) This made us wonder about Speedy: Was he still running? (Was he still alive?)

The New York Road Runners race archive revealed that his last race was in early 2020. He was in his mid-80s! His age group ranged from 80 to 99 years old; he placed 3rd at a pace of about 12 minutes per mile! Incredible.

But what happened? There have been races since early 2020, but many other things had happened since then. Was he still running? (Was he still alive?)

After some sleuthing, I found his e-mail address and, pushing my reluctance aside, pressed send after writing this note:

My name is Maria Yang and I live in Seattle, Washington. I am writing to thank you for inspiring my husband and me.

We’ve never met, but my husband and I have “known” you since 2008 or so. At that time, he and I lived in New York City and routinely ran in NYRR races. My then boyfriend and now husband was consistently impressed / playfully irked that you consistently beat him in NYRR races, given the 30+ years of difference in age. 

Since then, both in New York and since moving to Seattle, we have periodically thought of you. We enjoyed the idea that you were still running and inspiring people of all ages with your running and speed.

Today we watched the NYC Fifth Avenue Mile race on YouTube, which made us think of you again. We looked up your results on the NYRR results page (sorry that this is creepy behavior; we also found your e-mail address here) and were amazed with your results from your races in 2019 and 2020. We hope that we ourselves will still be running and racing when we are in our 80s. 

We hope that you and yours remain healthy and well. Thank you for offering a valuable perspective on successful aging and for the inspiration you offer to runners of all ages and abilities. Your influence is transcontinental! 

No automated e-mail bounced back to tell me that the address no longer existed. I released any expectations of a response–I just wanted to thank him.

I squeaked when I saw Speedy’s name in my mailbox. Two days had passed and he had sent a response!

Maria: Thank you for your email. Although I can no longer run, I do aerobics and strength training as much as I can. I believe that this has really helped me in my life. My last race was a 5K [in early] 2020. Although I was in the last corral and finished behind almost everyone else, I really enjoyed doing it. Speedy Old Man

He wasn’t running, but he was still alive! And was willing to respond to a stranger on the internet!

I immediately forwarded this to Husband and, when we saw each other later that day, we beamed. What a gift.

One of the later reactions I had to Speedy’s e-mail was sadness and anger. I don’t know why he can no longer run, but it seems likely that the pandemic was a contributor. Maybe he got infected with Covid in 2020. Maybe he became ill with something else and couldn’t access medical care because of the pandemic. Maybe, like one of my beloved family members, he became deconditioned and his mobility drastically declined.

The pandemic has taken so much from so many people.

I learned this lesson upon the death of my mother, though the pandemic reinforced it: If you want to thank someone, don’t hesitate. Thank them as soon as you can. Tell them what they mean to you, what they did that you appreciate, how they have made your life better. Time is short. If you wait, you may never again have the chance to offer the gift of your attention and thanks.

Thanks, Speedy Old Man.

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Homelessness Nonfiction Policy Public health psychiatry

Age and Vulnerability.

She was unprepared: One woolen blanket was wrapped around her shoulders. The other one was spread out so she did not have to sit directly on the ivy and weeds crawling across the hillside. A nylon sheet was rumpled by her side. Behind her was a pushcart that held a thin roll of garbage bags and a small empty cardboard box. There was no tent or sleeping bag. Though there were other people higher on the hillside, there was no one within earshot.

Most of the pages in her notebook were blank. The pen ink was bright turquoise; her penmanship was small and neat.

Small metal studs adorned her ears and a chunky chain was around her slender neck. Her hair was dyed an unnatural color and showed no signs of fading. The only hints that revealed that was not brand new to the hillside were the dust on her fashionable sneakers and the dirt that was collecting underneath her short fingernails. She also said that her phone had run out of charge.

She is not yet 20 years old.

I don’t expect that they are still alive, though I still think of them even when I’m not visiting New York City.

I met her when she was in her mid-60s. She never told us where she slept, though we reliably found her at the ferry terminal. Her fingers moved the needle and thread with ease to close the hole in her sock. She kept spools of thread in a plastic container that sat on the bundle of clothes she packed into her pushcart. Despite our best efforts for over two years, she never accepted housing: “The aliens will exterminate me if I go inside.”

I met him when he was in his 70s, or so we thought. No one knew his birthdate; he never shared this information. He buried himself between mounds of full trashbags or folded himself into cardboard boxes lining the curb. On the few occasions he spoke, the thinness of his voice—sometimes so faint that it seemed that only wisps of his speech reached my ears—betrayed his age.

Back here in Seattle, as elsewhere, there are people in their 70s and 80s who live outside or in shelters.

People under the age of 25 who are on their own and homeless are called “unaccompanied youth”. They are “considered vulnerable due to their age”. These unaccompanied youth make up about 5% of the homeless population in the US.

As the US population ages, people who are homeless are also aging. A study of homeless people in California found that 47% of all homeless adults are 50 years of age or older. Even more alarming, nearly half of all homeless people over 50 years of age first became homeless after they turned 50 years old!

Why do we consider “extremes” of age (though being in your late teens or your 70s is not actually “extreme”) as a factor that contributes to vulnerability when homeless? If you’re a 51 year-old man and you don’t know where you’re going to sleep tonight, doesn’t the variable of not knowing where you’re going to sleep tonight automatically make you vulnerable? Sure, you may have the size and mass to successfully defend yourself if someone attacks you or the ability to endure nighttime temperatures, but is that really where we’ve set the bar for vulnerability?