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Being Right vs. Being Effective.

“It’s best to avoid confirming their beliefs,” they said, “but you can validate the underlying emotion.”

She was dabbing her eyes with a crumpled tissue already streaked with mascara.

“It’s been two years and I still can’t believe he’s gone. I thought we would grow old together, that he’d get to see his kids graduate from high school.”

“The sadness still feels overwhelming.”

“Yes,” she whispered before bursting into tears. “When will I stop feeling so sad?”

He avoided eye contact while his leg bobbed up and down.

“I feel so anxious, like I’m paranoid. It used to be that I only felt paranoid when I was high on crystal meth, but now it’s all the time. It’s like people are watching me all the time, like they want to know all my business or something.”

“It’s exhausting to feel so anxious all the time.”

“Oh my God, YES. I’m so tired, but I can’t relax.”

“I didn’t know what to say to my wife. She didn’t deserve any of this. I tried to stop, and I did for a few weeks, but then I’d download more of it. My wife was the one who answered the door when the police came to seize my computer. I would do anything to not have this problem; I know how many people it hurts.”

“You feel a lot of shame about looking at child porn.”

His face flushed and his voice quivered.

“Yeah.”

She heard every word, but her gaze was fixed to something on the other side of the room.

“I can’t. I’ve already said too much. I can’t. I can’t. They know, they will know, they already know everything. I can’t. It’s in the lights, it’s in the ceiling, it’s in the sky. It’s everywhere. I can’t. They will know and they will know through the lights—”

“You’re scared that something bad will happen if you tell me the story.”

“Yes! And I want to be strong, I don’t want to be scared.”

“The whites are better than the Asiatics—”

“Let me ask something else—”

“—and there will come a day when all the races will submit to us—”

“—I’m going to walk away if you keep talking about this—”

“—even people who went to a lot of school like you. I’ll remember that you were helpful, but you are still just an Asiatic—”

“—okay, I’m going now.”

“But Doctor! You know what I say is true! C’mon! Why won’t you talk to me about this? You’re not being a good doctor….”

“You also have to respect your own limits,” they said. “Sometimes you want to show that just how right you are, but it’s much more helpful to be effective. And sometimes it’s best for everyone if you end the conversation when you’re no longer effective. You can always try again later.”

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Education Medicine Nonfiction Reflection

A Week in School!

I spent the past week at a health care ethics seminar. Here are some reflections:

How lucky was I to spend a week in school? The last time I sat in a classroom for five consecutive days was about 15 years ago. Prior to starting my clinical rotations in medical school, I was a professional student: There were 18 years between kindergarten and my second year of medical school. I got really skilled at sitting in classrooms, listening to people talk at me, and organizing the information for either tests or real-world application.

I’ve recognized the privilege of attending school. I don’t think I appreciated the depth of this privilege until this past week.

Different perspectives makes for rich learning. Most of the students in this seminar came from three professions: Chaplains, nurses, and physicians. There were some social workers, as well as an attorney or two.

There were further divisions within those groups: Some people were professionals within the military; others came from Catholic hospitals; multiple medical specialties were present. Most of the people there were already participating in ethics committees.

The different perspectives that each profession, specialty, and individual brought were useful. Decisions by committee can be onerous (cf. the pain of some meetings), but discussing and learning within committees is often humbling and fascinating. My classmates brought up ideas and arguments that I would not have considered.

One wonders if these rich discussions occur because we know our time together as a group is limited. In standing meetings in our usual jobs, we sometimes get accustomed to who says what and why. We might also face formal or informal consequences for speaking up (or not speaking up). In a week-long seminar, what have you got to lose by sharing your thoughts?

On not speaking up. As both a student and physician, I continue to receive feedback that I should talk more. (Given how much I blather here, one might find this surprising.) When I was a student, sometimes teachers thought I didn’t care about the topic. (Usually untrue.) Sometimes they thought I was shy. (I’m not, though people who haven’t gotten to know me might think otherwise.)

These days, sometimes people wish I would speak up to demonstrate my expertise. Sometimes I get the impression that some people want to know what I’m thinking, but when I don’t speak, they believe I’m withholding information on purpose. (Rarely true.)

There was plenty of dialogue that occurred between teacher and student and between students during the lectures. I said little. The admonitions from my past (and present) echoed in my ears: “You’re not talking! You’re not contributing to the group! Why don’t you say something and help out?”

Honestly, I think I’m just a slow thinker. It’s not that I don’t have opinions; I just find myself thinking about multiple perspectives at the same time. This muddles my thoughts. Muddled thoughts often leads me to produce incoherent speech. While I’m slowly clarifying a single line of thought, others who are able to organize their thoughts faster have raised their hands and are ready to speak.

Health care ethics isn’t limited to death and dying. Most of the discussions we had during the seminar surrounded death and dying. For example: A child is in a coma in the intensive care unit. The medical team wants to proceed with further interventions and treatment that has a 50% chance of recovery. The parents of the child want to withdraw treatment, which means imminent death. Discuss.

I imagine that most ethics consultations in the hospital are related to death and dying. But what about all the other ethical quandaries that are not as “glamorous”, but occur more frequently?

Like informed consent for medications. How much informing is “enough”? How much detail of the risks, benefits, and alternatives should we offer? If someone doesn’t want the information, but wants the treatment, is that a valid consent?

When I was a resident, one of my attendings commented in half-jest, “A common problem with informed consent is that by the time someone is truly informed, they are not able to provide consent… and when someone consents, they are not truly informed. Consider someone who is experiencing CPR: The chest compressions, the mouth-to-mouth breathing, the ribs breaking. That person is completely informed about CPR now… but he can’t consent. But when we obtain consent about CPR, that person usually has no idea what happens during CPR.”

Involuntary treatment is a big deal in psychiatry (as it should be). Sometimes we don’t seem to devote sufficient attention to all of its ethical issues.

The value of teachers showing vulnerability. Some of the speakers at this seminar take care of patients. They offered real clinical examples of ethical quandaries (e.g., a patient who doesn’t want to know her diagnosis, even though the physician believes that the patient should know). Those discussions were the most compelling because these teachers had opinions about what to do, but were not sure and still are not sure if they did the “right” thing.

I admired the thoughtfulness and humility of these speakers. Ambiguity is present in all of medicine. Sometimes we—all of us, regardless of our role—want a clear, concrete answer, but it doesn’t exist. Sometimes people craft an answer to reduce the motion sickness they feel while floating on the sea of ambiguity. It takes courage to recognize that sometimes there is no anchor, that the clouds are blocking the stars, that we don’t know where we are or what to do next. We just do the best we can with the information we have at the moment.

The value of pithiness. Several of the instructors seemed to speak solely in aphorisms. It didn’t matter how muddled or disorganized our questions were; they reformulated our questions with wisdom and clarity and provided concise answers.

I wish I could do that all the time.

Each instructor highlighted the importance of clarifying the ethics consultation question. This idea was also drilled into our minds as psychiatry residents when we were learning how to do hospital consults. What is the question? It doesn’t matter how great the answer is if it doesn’t actually address the question. And sometimes we don’t know what we’re asking.

Pithiness comes from clear thinking. Clear thinking comes from understanding the issue at hand. We don’t understand the “issue at hand” unless we ask questions.

Of course, these instructors have been thinking about ethics for years. They have likely heard our questions or some variant of them before. The various moral frameworks (e.g., utilitarianism, deontology, virtue ethics, etc.) are novel to us, but not to them.

It also takes time to think clearly. The time pressures inherent in clinical medicine contribute to muddled thinking or, in the worst case scenario, not thinking at all. This is yet another reason why I was grateful to attend this seminar: There was time to think, reflect, and consider the “bigger” picture of the work we do.

As I’ve noted before, the more experience I get, the more I realize how much I don’t know. (It’s disturbing.) This is why I now value more how to think, rather than what to think. The content changes over time as psychiatry makes (slow) advances. Knowing how to apply this information in the service of caring for patients is paramount.

For those of you interested in health care ethics, the primary paradigm this seminar used is called the “four boxes“. Look over my Twitter timeline for more comments about the seminar (though I stopped sharing much after day three, only because my mind felt full).

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It’s Good to be Busy.

It was a busy day:

There was the guy who spoke with enthusiasm about his doctrine of RUL (“Righteous Unconditional Love”); the man who stared through me after I asked him about whether he had eaten that morning; the fellow who made no efforts to hide his nose-picking while expressing his frustration with the court system; the young man who wouldn’t let me inspect the wound on his hand, though I soon recognized that he had crafted the wound out of a packet of juice crystals; the man who hadn’t taken a shower in several months, though the odor bothered me more than it bothered him; the guy who boasted about his abilities to run a mile in two minutes; the man who refused to acknowledge my existence; the fellow who advised me that he would prefer to take his medications in the morning because that’s what his nurse practitioner told him to do; the man who apologized for masturbating, but argued that he is young and “that’s what young people do”; the fellow who said that after he used “bad heroin”, he realized that his parents aren’t actually his parents; the guy who found lithium energizing and was in the process of tapering off of methadone; and the man who simply said, “I’m not sick,” when I asked him why he hadn’t been taking medication that the state psychiatric hospital had prescribed to him. Nurses paged to ask for orders for medications to reduce the discomfort of heroin withdrawal, medications that patients had asked for three days ago, medications that patients took before they entered jail. The phone rang as callers shared information about diagnosis, treatment, and next steps.

I tipped my head back in the chair, stretched my arms up, and sighed.

“You okay?”

It was my second year of residency and I was the only psychiatrist in the hospital that night. My duties included addressing any issues that occurred in the psychiatric unit and providing care for any patients that came to the emergency department with psychiatric concerns.

My classmates had warned me about a particular emergency medicine attending physician who was working that night:

  • “Last week he told me I was useless.”
  • “He rolls his eyes at me all the time.”
  • “He’s just angry. He won’t ever thank you for anything you do.”

“Hi, Dr. Angry,” I said around 7pm. “I’m the psychiatry resident on call tonight.”

After glancing at me, Dr. Angry grunted.

Well, I guess that’s how it’s going to go tonight.

Less than three hours later, after Dr. Angry referred four patients to me, he muttered in my direction, “I’ve got another one for you.”

Shortly after midnight, a patient’s husband was pulling her out of the ED while she was screaming at me.

“I’M GOING TO GET YOU FIRED FROM HERE! YOU’RE A TERRIBLE DOCTOR! I KNOW THE PRESIDENT OF THE HOSPITAL! YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME!”

I was shaking, but I wasn’t going to admit her to the hospital. Dr. Angry caught my eye and nodded once. I wasn’t the only person who knew I was shaking.

It was close to 3am and I had already seen seven patients.

Dr. Angry had a slight smile on his face as he approached me while I was slogging through my notes.

“Dr. Yang, there’s another one for you to see.”

please make it stop

“Thank you. Who is it?”

As I was beginning my note around 6am for the ninth patient I saw, Dr. Angry stopped by.

“Dr. Yang, you did all right. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome, Dr. Angry.”

I tipped my head back forward in the chair in the jail and dropped my arms.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” I replied to my colleague. “It’s busy, but it’s good to be busy. And when I think about my intern year, this isn’t bad at all.”

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Talking About Suicide.

I was recently asked to speak at a community event about youth suicide. Several young people in the area had killed themselves in the past few months to years. This was an opportunity for the community to learn and talk about suicide and suicide prevention.

My role was to provide a professional perspective on and information about suicide in young people. There was also a panel of people between the ages of 16 and 19 who shared their perspectives about suicide. The youth panel was the most compelling aspect of the evening.

The audience was comprised entirely of adults. Most were probably parents; others were adults who often interact with young people, such as school administrators and police. The youth panel encouraged the audience to talk to the young people in their lives about death, dying, and suicide. The panel also spoke about the importance of showing that they, as adults, care about young people. They shared their experiences in how talking about suicide with their peers has given others hope and saved lives.

One girl shared an anecdote that involved a teacher who inspected the wrists and arms of students prior to a test. He wanted to ensure that students didn’t have accoutrements on their arms that could contribute to cheating. This girl said that she felt anxious about rolling up her sleeves because of the scars on her wrists and arms from cutting. What would her teacher say or do?

When he inspected her arms, he undoubtedly saw the scars. His response? “Okay, good. Nothing on you that will lead to cheating.” And that was it. He never spoke to her about what he saw; he never asked her how she was doing or what the injuries were on her arms.

What did she take away from that? “He cared more about whether I was cheating than about me staying alive.”

The fresh candor of young people inspired some adults to comment on their own perspectives of suicide. One man, hands stuffed into the pockets of his jeans and voice deep and gruff, shared, “I’m a veteran. I also come from a generation of men who just don’t talk about suicide, even though a lot of veterans come home from war and commit suicide.”

The contrast was striking: The young people sat on the stage, the lights on their faces, and spoke about death and suicide without fear or self-consciousness. The adults sat in the shade of the auditorium and shifted with unease, gasped with sadness, or shook their heads when they heard the youth talk about their peers dying.

I do not believe that there was anything anomalous about this group of young people. Youth want to talk with adults about death, dying, and suicide. They want relationships with parents and other parental figures where they can ask questions, share their worries, and learn how to navigate the difficulties in life so that they can live another day. They also are sensitive to the burdens that adults already experience; sometimes they don’t share their thoughts, worries, dreams, and fears with us because they don’t want to cause us more distress. Because they automatically assume that any conversation about death and dying will cause distress in adults.

I created a short handout with suggestions about how to talk about suicide with young people (hint: these suggestions work with adults and older people, too). It also has phone numbers to call, online chats to access, and websites to view for more information about suicide prevention.

There is no evidence to support the fear that talking about suicide—particularly in a thoughtful, caring way—will increase the likelihood that people will kill themselves. In fact, talking about suicide directly can help people change their minds about taking their lives.

Here’s the requisite link to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, which is an excellent and literally lifesaving resource. However, I encourage all of us to talk with each other, within our own communities—even if it is “only” the community within our homes—about death, dying, and suicide. We don’t have to talk about it all the time; we don’t have to ask each other, “Are you thinking about killing yourself?” every day. The more comfort we have with talking about how we are doing, what we’re thinking about, and what death means to us, the more we can support each other when the difficulties, problems, and failures in life occur.

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Thoughts on the Movie “Get Out”.

Have you seen the movie Get Out? If you haven’t, what follows might spoil part of the movie for you. You might want to watch it before reading this.

If you have seen Get Out, this post ponders the role of psychiatry in the movie. (Full disclosure: I enjoyed and recommend the movie.)

We learn early on in the movie that Rose’s mother is a psychiatrist. Chris, Rose’s boyfriend, asks something like, “She’s a psychologist?”

The response Chris receives is something like, “No, she’s a psychiatrist.”

While I can’t know for sure, I believe that the writer of the film, Jordan Peele[1. If you are not familiar with Jordan Peele, please go watch some clips of Key and Peele.], wanted to highlight the difference between the two. Psychiatrists are physicians. And some physicians, under the guise of expertise, have promoted racist ideas.

Dr. Samuel Cartwright was a physician who practiced in Alabama, Mississippi, and Louisiana in the years leading up to the American Civil War. He defended slavery and wrote pieces that argued that blacks were inferior to whites.

One of his articles, “Diseases and Peculiarities of the Negro Race“, describes “drapetomania, or the disease causing Negroes to run away”. Because he describes drapetomania “is as much a disease of the mind as any other species of mental alienation”, it is clear that this is a psychiatric condition, such as kleptomania (compulsive stealing), pyromania (compulsive fire-setting), and dipsomania (the old name for alcohol use disorders).

In this article Dr. Cartwright asserts that God has ordained blacks as “submissive knee-bender[s]” and are “intended to occupy… the position of submission”. To support that blacks were destined to be “submissive knee-benders”, he states that “in the anatomical conformation of his knees, we see [it] written in the physical structure of his knees, being more flexed or bent, than any other kind of a man.”

To prevent the development of drapetomania, he states:

if his master or overseer be kind and gracious in his hearing towards him, without condescension, and at the same time ministers to his physical wants, and protects him from abuses, the negro is spell-bound, and cannot run away.

In Get Out, Chris (plus Georgiana, Walter, and Andrew) becomes obviously “spell-bound” through the hypnotic powers of the porcelain cup and silver spoon. One could argue that Rose is demonstrating faith in this practice as she was initially “kind and gracious”, “without condescension”, “ministers to his physical wants”, and “protects him from abuses” (remember the police officer who pulled them over?).

Dr. Cartwright comments that, in the course of drapetomania, slaves become “sulky and dissatisfied” before they run away. He advises that “the cause of this sulkiness and dissatisfaction should be inquired into and removed, or they are apt to run away or fall into the negro consumption.” However, if slaves were “sulky and dissatisfied without cause,” he states that the treatment was “in favor of whipping them out of it, as a preventive measure against absconding, or other bad conduct. It was called whipping the devil out of them.”[2. Wikipedia also comments that another treatment for drapetomania included “removal of both big toes”, which makes running difficult.]

Chris becomes understandably “sulky and dissatisfied” with his time at the Armitage home and seeks to flee. Though he wasn’t whipped to treat his drapetomania, it’s not a hard stretch to argue that the plan to remove most of his brain (“coagula”) is essentially whipping the devil out of him so that only his body remains.

Dr. Cartwright apparently published these ideas in the New Orleans Medical and Surgical Journal (as well as De Bow’s Review, a magazine of “agricultural, commercial, and industrial progress and resource” in the American South). This publication came from his work as the chairman Louisiana State Medical Convention committee. One of their tasks was to “examine the diseases peculiar to the Black slaves of the antebellum South”.[3. From a Lancet article called “Drapetomania“.] This was a professional medical opinion!

To be clear, not all physicians agreed with Dr. Cartwright’s opinion. Dr. Hunt, a physician who practiced in Buffalo, New York—that is, North of the Mason-Dixon line—lampooned Dr. Cartwright’s concept of drapetomania. He rightly wondered why drapetomania seemed to only exist in the South. He made wry remarks that drapetomania seems to affect the neurons of slaves so that they only flee in a northerly direction. He also pointed out that drapetomania resembled the condition of schoolchildren who ran away from school to play.

In essence, Dr. Hunt shouted, “Context matters!”

Dr. Cartwright sincerely believed that drapetomania was an inherent quality of black people.[4. Dr. Cartwright also described “dysaethesia aethiopica“, or “hebetude or mind and obtuse sensibility of body” that only occurred in blacks in the South.] As he was a fish in the sea of Southern slaveowning culture, he either could or would not believe that social and political context affects the definitions of psychiatric conditions. (He also could not believe that his ideas were wrong.) Maybe Jordan Peele was thinking about Dr. Cartwright and drapetomania when he created the characters in Get Out. Maybe he wasn’t; maybe he was pointing out the consequences and longevity of racism.

Psychiatry has been and can easily become an agent of social control. The moment we begin to think that we’re too good or too smart or too sophisticated to become agents of social control, we and the people under our care are doomed.

It is paramount that we remember this always in the current political climate. May we have the wisdom and courage of Dr. Hunt.