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Medicine Reflection

Culture and Cure.

A note written by an internist for a patient with altered mental status:[1. The hospital team, which included several specialists, had done a thorough medical workup for the patient. A psychiatrist got involved after three or four days.]

One option is to have someone (from patient’s culture) perform sacrifice and prayers for him. Another option is to find a traditional (culture) doctor for him here. We’ll discuss these options. Lorazepam and Seroquel for now.

I smiled after I read this. Why?

  • Was it the earnest efforts of the physician to integrate two different cultures—the culture of Western medicine and the culture the patient belonged to—in this patient’s care? That the internist was willing to consider treatments that he did not understand or use? That the physician was motivated to help the patient, regardless of method?
  • Was it the haste of the last sentence—a fragment, an afterthought—that suggests resignation about the patient’s minimal improvement? and relief because the physician was familiar with those pills? That, “for now”, giving those medications meant that the physician was “doing” something?
  • Was it the realization that other cultures might view our faith in medications as strange?
  • Was it the uncertainty about the tone of voice the physician used when dictating this short note? Was he actually earnest? Or rolling his eyes?

The punchline: The patient’s symptoms did improve with medications. When a spiritual leader from the patient’s culture spent an hour with him a day or two later, the patient’s condition completely resolved.


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Medicine Observations Reflection

On the Word “Prescriber”.

Please don’t call call me a “prescriber”. Yes, I know it’s easier to say “prescriber” than “psychiatric nurse practitioner, physician assistant, or psychiatrist”.[1. I don’t know if ARNPs, PAs, and physicians are called “prescribers” in other areas of medicine. Do people call their cardiologists or pediatricians “prescribers”?] The word “prescriber”, however, puts severe limits on what I can do and how I can help.

You may believe that, because I have a license to prescribe medications, that’s all I choose to do. In fact, you may believe that’s all I know how to do.

Psychiatrists can do a lot more than that.

As a psychiatrist, I can:

  1. use interpersonal skills so that people feel comfortable talking to me about personal things
  2. help people design mini-experiments to determine if their beliefs about themselves are helpful or accurate
  3. prompt people to consider different sides of an issue to help them commit to decisions about their health
  4. encourage people to pause and reflect on their own thoughts, emotions, and behaviors
  5. teach people skills about how to manage the expectations they have of themselves and others
  6. educate people on how to help themselves so that they eventually won’t have to see me or another psychiatrist in the future[2. This list in technical terms would translate to:
    1. engage and build rapport with a wide variety of people
    2. gently challenge cognitive distortions
    3. enhance ambivalence, as in motivational interviewing
    4. encourage self-reflection to facilitate mindfulness and create more opportunities for positive reinforcement
    5. teach skills related to interpersonal effectiveness and the dialectic of acceptance and change
    6. help people exit the mental health system

    ]

While it is true that I might use those skills to encourage some people to take medications, I can also use those skills to:

  1. help people to reduce the number and amount of psychiatric medications they are taking[3. Some people end up taking multiple medications for unclear reasons. This often occurs when physicians do not have a clear diagnosis; they are instead chasing symptoms. One irritating example is the prescription of antipsychotic medications for insomnia… for someone who is not psychotic. Yes, antipsychotic medications are sedating. They can also cause high blood pressure, weight gain, diabetes, and involuntary movements. I’m not confident that all doctors regularly share this information with patients.]
  2. coach people to first try interventions other than medications[4. Remember, when we prescribe medications, we are recommending to people that they put chemicals into their bodies. In psychiatry, we often can’t offer solid explanations as to how these chemicals work. To be clear, I am not anti-medication; I use the word “chemicals” to highlight what we’re asking people to do when we write prescriptions.]
  3. provide education about the interactions between mind and body, whether related to medications or medical conditions

If my skill set is limited to prescribing medications alone, those automated psychiatrist machines will replace me in short order.

Psychiatrists should continue to strive to be the artisans of the clinical interview. As with the other specialties in medicine, the goals in psychiatry should focus on improving quality of life and reducing suffering. Sometimes that involves medications; sometimes it doesn’t.

The word “prescriber” overlooks those goals entirely.


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Education Homelessness Lessons Medicine Nonfiction Policy Reflection Systems

Involuntary Commitment (VII).

This post is overdue by one year! It may help to review the third scenario and a primer on involuntary commitment before reading on.

Why the delay? Because I still wrestle with the question at the end of this post.


Recall in the third scenario the man, described as a chronic inebriate, who frequently tried to kill himself while intoxicated. He recently had slapped a woman in a laundromat and had thrown a can of soda at outreach workers. How would you apply involuntary commitment criteria here?

1. Does this person want to harm himself or someone else?

While intoxicated, he has said that he wants to kill himself and we know that he has, in fact, harmed other people: He slapped a woman in the laundromat and he threw a can of soda at some outreach workers. While these may be minor insults in the grand scheme of things, they still suggest that he is disinhibited enough potentially harm someone.

2. How imminent is this risk of harm to self or others?

Probably imminent. Since he is frequently intoxicated, he is frequently disinhibited.

3. Are these behaviors due to a psychiatric condition?

Maybe.

Is an alcohol use disorder a psychiatric condition?

Think about your answer again.

Though “alcohol use disorder” is listed as a condition in DSM-5, some would argue that it is not a psychiatric condition. They would say that it is a choice. They would also argue that the mental disturbance that comes from alcohol use is temporary while “true” psychiatric conditions do not have the same cause-and-effect phenomena that we often see with alcohol.

However, we also know that this man has reported auditory hallucinations in the past and, regardless if his alcohol use is a psychiatric condition or not, his intoxication is clearly affecting his ability to function.

At least that is how I formulated it.

Related: Will hospitalization help treat the underlying psychiatric condition?

Possibly. The likelihood that he can become intoxicated with alcohol in the hospital is very low (but not impossible).

What actually happened?


The man was going around in circles from emergency room to street to jail. The police wanted him admitted to the hospital because the only time the police weren’t picking him up was when he was sober, which was when he was in the hospital. The outreach team had housing for him (he could have moved in tomorrow!), but he was too intoxicated to accept the invitations.

There was a big meeting and we concocted a big plan: The outreach team would find and talk with the man in the park in five days at 11am. He would likely be intoxicated and belligerent by then. The police would meet us there. The police would help transport the man to the hospital on an involuntary order. The emergency department staff would admit him to the hospital, whether he agreed to or not. Once he received treatment in the hospital, he would be discharged into his own apartment, with hopes that he would stay off the streets and away from alcohol.

What could go wrong?

On the appointed day, we found him in the park.

“Hey hey hey,” he said, putting his arm around the outreach worker, a goofy grin on his face. He offered the 40-ounce can of beer to us. “It’s the first one. Half full. I’m an optimist.” He laughed.

My heart was starting to sink: Even though he slapped a woman and threw a can of soda at someone less than a week ago, he wasn’t doing anything right now that would warrant an involuntary hospitalization.

But the show must go on, right? Multiple people and systems were involved. We had a big plan. And going through with the plan would be in his best interests, right?

Right?

“So,” the outreach worker started, “what do you think about going to the hospital with us?”

He laughed. “I don’t need to go to the hospital. I’m fine.”

“The doctors can check your health, make sure everything is okay….”

“Naw, don’t need it. I feel fine.”

Indeed. He was buzzed, but that wasn’t a reason to go to the hospital.

He looked over our shoulders, smiled, and shouted, “HEY!”

Behind us were four men with broad shoulders and thick legs. We all recognized them as police officers, though they were wearing casual clothes. They nodded at us.

“Wanna go to that bar with me?” the man asked, pointing to the brick building down the street.

“Sure!” the police said, chuckling. “It’s 11am.”

The outreach worker and I stood by our car and watched them disappear into the bar. We said nothing. Still nothing had happened that would warrant hospitalization, voluntary or not.

Several minutes later, the police officers and the man emerged from the bar. The man was singing:

Hello!
Is it me you’re looking for?
’cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?

The officers started laughing. Everyone was having a good time.

The police led the man to a squad car and opened the back door.

“We’re going to the hospital.”

“F@ck no,” the man said, smiling, having no idea what was happening. My heart sank further.

“Get into the car.”

“No!”

“Look, get into the car—”

—and that’s when he spit at a police officer.

WHAM! It happened so fast that I couldn’t believe what happened. They threw him against the hood of the police car. Two officers pinned his arms down. The other two looked ready to strike him.

I wasn’t the only one who noticed. Pedestrians began to rubberneck. Some young men began to call, “What did he do? Why you doing that?”

“It’s none of your business. Keep walking. There’s nothing to see here,” a police officer barked.

“No, that ain’t right. Why did you do that?”

A woman with flowers in her grey hair and a flowing peasant dress around her thin frame approached.

“That’s police brutality, that’s what. We need to get rid of the cops.”

In the meantime, the police officers had handcuffed the man—for what? for what?—and placed a mesh bag over his head so that if he tried to spit again, the netting would catch it.[1. This mesh bag is called a “spit sack”.] They pushed him into the back of the car and closed the door.

The crowd on the sidewalk grew. Close to three dozen people started to shout and chant at the police officers.

The outreach worker and I got into our car. What was happening?

The ambulance the police had called arrived. A paramedic got out and, hands on his hips, talked with one of the police officers. His brow was furrowed and he was frowning. The officer shrugged, then pointed to our car.

The paramedic walked over and knocked on my window. I rolled it down.

“What did this man do? Why are we taking him to the hospital? Did he actually do anything that warrants an involuntary transport?”

My cheeks burned.

“No.”

The paramedic[2. God bless this paramedic. We need people like him to ask these questions.] glared at me. He then turned around and walked away.

The police and paramedics moved him from the back of the police car into the ambulance while the crowd continued to bristle. The ambulance honked as it tried to weave through the crowd.

After the police drove away, the crowd dispersed.

The outreach worker and I sat in our car in silence. My cheeks were still burning.


He was in the hospital for about two weeks. The first three days were against his will. He agreed to stay in the hospital for the remaining 11 days.

The outreach worker met the man when he was discharged from the hospital to escort him to his apartment. He attended AA meetings four days a week. He took his two medications every night. He saw his counselor every week.

He avoided the park. The police started calling our office: “We never see him anymore. Do you know what happened?”

I never saw the man again, though heard occasional updates from his psychiatrist. The man didn’t drink any alcohol for nearly a year. When he did slip, he asked to go to the hospital. The police never got involved.

Even now, I still ask myself, “Did we do the right thing?”


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Homelessness Observations Reflection

Continuity of Care.

The first time I saw him he was walking around the shelter with another man. His hands were buried in the pockets of his hoodie and his gaze was fixed on the ground. He looked shorter than his actual height because he was slouching.

He and the man walked laps around the shelter while they talked. His expression was hard: Eyebrows furrowed, jaw tight, lips curled into a slight frown. He moved across the tiled floor like a sleek fish gliding through the water.

“Hi,” I said, introducing myself. “Do you mind if we talk for a few minutes?”

His companion kept walking as he coasted to a halt. His stony expression softened; his eyebrows raised and wrinkles appeared at the outer corners of his eyes as he smiled.

“Sure. Thank you.”

He and I walked laps around the shelter for the next few days. His father beat his mother, his brother, and him. At the age of 11 he found his mother’s body after she committed suicide. His father disappeared for days at a time. When he returned, his speech was slurred, clothes were dirty, and exhalations were thick with malt liquor. He stopped attending school. He ran away from home. He slept in alleys and underneath bridges. The police picked him up on a variety of charges: Theft. Drug possession. Criminal trespass.


The second time I saw him he lying on a mat in the shelter. The stiff blanket was not long enough to cover his entire body; his feet with their long toenails poked out.

He pulled the blanket off of his face and replied, “Heroin. Couple days ago.” Pulling up a sleeve, he showed me the collection of tiny bruises on his arm. He closed his eyes. Beads of sweat collected on the pale skin of his forehead.

“I’ll be done kicking dope tomorrow.” He pulled the blanket back over his head.


The third time I saw him he was sitting on the floor in the shelter, his arms hugging his knees.

“I don’t make many promises. I promised her that I won’t kill myself. I keep the promises I make, so I didn’t do it. I really wanted to.”

He accepted the invitation and got up. He and I walked laps around the shelter. He had yet to talk with her, though he planned to see her tomorrow. The last time he used heroin was over six months ago, but he was also in jail for four of those months.

“You didn’t use anything in jail?”

He shook his head.

After a pause, he said, “You know, I’ve seen you downtown. You were with a guy, so I didn’t want to bug you.”

“Is that where you’re staying these days?”

“Yeah.”

“Outside?”

“Yeah.”


The fourth time I saw him he was standing on the sidewalk outside of a methadone clinic. The hood of his sweatshirt was pulled over his head and baggy jeans covered his long legs. His hands were buried in the pockets of his sweatshirt. The other man made a joke; he chuckled and wrinkles appeared at the outer corners of his eyes as he smiled.

I crossed the street. He was with a guy and I didn’t want to bug him.


The fifth time I saw him he had already passed me. Without realizing that I was reviving an old habit, I wrapped the long white coat closed as I looked over my shoulder.

“Smith!” the officer barked. “Stay where you are. Turn around.”

He stopped, turned, and looked up. We saw each other.

“Go back to your cellblock, Smith.”

He moved across the concrete floor like a sleek fish gliding through the water. Before he passed me, he nodded in recognition. I nodded back.

We both kept walking. I sighed.

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Lessons Nonfiction Observations Reflection

The Club.

Though you are now a member of the club, you don’t know it.

It feels like no one understands and that you’re alone. The memory of what happened to The Person You Love is heartbreaking.

The feeling seems endless. Perhaps you feel it in your body; maybe it feels like a hollow weight in your chest. Maybe your head feels heavy. Maybe most of it unfolds through your thoughts: You hear good news and your heart floats for a few moments, but then you remember what happened. Even good news somehow seems sad.

Sometimes it feels like time doesn’t move the way it did before it happened. Thoughts like, “This is the youngest I will ever be… will I remember this?” become regular visitors to your mind. You grasp those little things that bring you joy and cling to them:

  • The summer watermelon is cool, crisp, and sweet against your tongue. Will this be the last watermelon I ever eat?
  • How wonderful it is to see the splashes of peach, pink, orange, and purple across the evening sky! Will this be the last time I witness this supernatural work of art?
  • He has a delightful laugh! I hope that this won’t be the last time I hear it.

Life takes on a quiet desperation.

Because you don’t know if you will experience these moments again, gratitude overwhelms you:

  • I turn on the faucet and hot water comes out in seconds! I get to take a comfortable shower every day!
  • I have a place to live! My mind doesn’t have to spend every waking moment worrying about where I will sleep tonight!
  • I have friends! We talk, we laugh, we spend time together, we enjoy ourselves!

Life is beautiful and sublime.

You dream about The Person: Sometimes the dreams are comforting, sometimes they are disturbing, but they are all cryptic. You wake up, your limbs heavy in bed, and wonder: Is she really dead?

That feeling comes back. You know the answer to that question. She is, but you’re not, so you get out of bed.

There are moments throughout the day when you do forget what happened. The weight disappears and you focus on the things in front of you right now. Things shift, and your mind begins to make associations that you didn’t make before:

“I look at grass and I think of tombstones now.”

You concoct explanations to comfort yourself, though sometimes they don’t:

  • Molecules of air that were in her lungs are still in the house. When I inhale, some of that air is now in me.
  • Though she is dead, her genes live on in me. The genes continue to experience the world, even if she does not.

Some things don’t matter anymore. Kindness becomes essential. Relationships with people become vital.

When people in the club learn that you are a new member, they welcome you with a grace that you didn’t realize existed. You acknowledge that you had no idea that they were a member of the club.

“That’s how it works,” they reply.

They spend time with you. They share wise words. They share wise silence. They comfort you.

You then realize that you’re not alone, that there are people who understand. They appreciate how heavy the weight is in your chest and help you carry it. They remember the difficulty and loneliness of having to carry the weight alone. They also know that, ultimately, you often must carry it by yourself.

Everyone eventually joins this club. If you, too, are a new member, know that you are not alone. There is no club uniform, badge, or pin, but we are here and share your grief.